I try so hard, but in the end it doesn’t even matter.

FRI- 10/23/09  1:13p.m.

                                  “moo”

LOVE   linkin park. Annnyways sorry yet again for not writing much, this weeks been very busy. Im in 3rd right now, just finished typing my “i hear my school singing” poem so i though i wud get on here. Oh btw theres a reason behind that “moo” up there. IM IN A PLAY! well more than one… this one is by misulas( not spelt right i know) its Jack and the beanstalk! guess what part i got. Give up? …… the cow. Surprisingly i really like my role, they said they picked me because i showed a lot of facial expressions and emotions. I guess thats a complement, i still felt kinda fat though. Anyways weve had rehersal all day this week from 3:30 to 8, so my schds been kinda full. Only for this week though, the plays tomorrow! Ugh tomorrows gonna be a very hectic day- help dad move ( oh btw hes moving his store), do the play, help dad move some more, do the play again, watch the kids, and the FINALLY some me time. pretty busy day huh? anyways at least i know i won’t be bored… Welp class is about over so i better go, write later…maybe. PEACE!

 

oooooooooooo witchy

Sat- 10/17/09             7:33 p.m.

 

                                                              ” guys are like elephants,

                                                                 they go crazy for nuts!”

                                                                                              ~ mr. greene

 

sorry i havent written in a while, its been a very long week. Im not sure if i can recapture it all, but ill do what i can. Well on monday we didnt have school, so molly came over for another “movie” day. or at least thats what we had originally planed. What we really did was hang out at my house, went to the library, went on a search for a waterfall, watched the Covenant and thats pretty much it. on our quest to find the claimed to be waterfall, we got lost and started to get freaked out. i guess it doesnt help me screaming that a guy with a chainsaw was going to be standin at the end of the road, and that there was a cemetary there either but still. We ended up callin a frd but they didnt really care. Good Friend huh? anyways we hurry and left to get the movie and soon things turned to normal. Well as normal as you can get with me and molly. Tuesday i was up at App till 9 watchin orcastrey (not spelt right), it was pretty good but i got kinda bored after the first couple of songs. anyways the rest of the week was pretty normal. It wasnt a very good week though because for some reason i got really depressed and it just seems like nothing has been going my way. Yesterday i got stuck with hanging out my cousin, she use to be my best friend but this year weve slowly grown apart. For her birthday we went to saige brush with maria, roger, and westley. It would have been fun if i was in their click but i felt out of place. Truth is i would have much rather gone with my friends to the haunted house in lansing but i had already promised my cus i would go with them. The real thing i enjoyed was singing loudly in the car. I never knew 4 people could do the cha cha in a car (westley was a loser and didnt dance) So yeah that was pretty much my week. Oh yeah, today i went shopping – okay more like mom went shopping and draged me with her- and went to my dads store to pick out paint colors. Hes moving his store to another bigger location. Right now im watchin Saw 2, just watched the 1st one and gettin ready to go on a raid with dad. Yes, i am a girl that plays video games….so what? anyways i guess i better go saws back on and its really interesting. write more sometime, night.

p.s. sorry this entry wasn’t very exciting, i havent been very creative latly.

                                                                                                                                                                                                      toby hemingway ♥

so Cinderella finally went to the ball…

Sat- 10/10/09       10:18 a.m.

   

                                                     ” following that rainbow…”

 

 

 

my week was pretty hectic. it was spirit week so each day you was surpose to dress up. Of course me being the way i am decided to partake in this activity and was one of thoses losers that you see walkin down the hall dressed in their decked out outfit. Monday- Pj day Tuesday- neon( i did neon tacky) day Wednesday- camo day Thursday- blast from the past day( i went with the 50s look, Poodle skirt baby!) Friday- Spirit day. It was pretty fun but i felt pretty stupid walkin down the hallways in my bright green poka-dotted pants. annnnnyways i believe the highlight of my week was friday night. After school i pretty much hung out with friends till the football game. Then i met up with more friends and we basically spent 2 hours walking around in a giant circle. lol me molly courtney and zach each claimed a football player on the other team, mine was number dos ; D later around 10 o’clock we headed inside for the dance. Courtney spent the night with me so we didnt leave till 12. The dance was pretty awesome and i danced the whole time. Lol i ended up teaching at least 6 people some kinda dance move, which is pretty sad cus i dont even think im a good dancer( apperently to them i am) the only bad thing about the dance was that i didnt get to dance with the guy i like( he danced with another girl =[    ) but i did end up dancin with tucker. That poor kid is never going to learn to dance. When the dance finally ended me and courtney when to my house and soon afterwards we chonked out. Pretty good week if you asked me.

 

Back to the past…

Mon- 10/5/09           8:13 p.m.

                                                              ” Love is like the wind,

                                                                    you can’t see it but you can feel it “

 

 My weekend was okay i went to a birthday part/ sleep over friday- it had its ups n downs but mainly was ruined because of a couple of things…enough said. saturday i went to another and that one was surprisingly fun. and i got some awesome cds outta it. later we went shopping and i got some of the cutest  pj bottoms =D Sunday- church, dinner, home. which leaves today. well this weeks spirit week so im currently sittin in my school pjs watchin family guy n iming ppl. i cant wait for tomorrows outfit mines so crazy i LOVE it! annyways back to todays activites, i had school, then home (btw FINALLY got my radio fixed in my car, its been broken for like a month now) and grandparents came up to eat hottdogs. after supper im not sure how we started it but we got out my parents old year books and spent like an hour looking through them. It was hilarous seeing my parents near my age. my mom doesnt look that much different but my dad is tottal different now. lol he looked like a total nerd back then. The most funniest thing about it was that my parents went to different schools and there was the same guy in both their yearbooks. Lol it was even the same picture of the guy and the year books was 3 years apart. Im not sure how that was really possible but its there! anyways after my little trip through the past my grandparents left, and here i am on the computer still watching family guy. I guess i better go to bed, got a big day tomorrow. Write later-night.

 

p.s. I’m not sure how the picture relates to this blog but i like it  = )

Dear Father,

Wed- 9/30/09

                                   ” Dear Friend,

                                          Always remeber the Bible

                                          is your friend. And so am I.

                                          I hope you are living for Jesus.”

                                                                         Jonathan Sperry

Lord first of all lets me say that i wish for your forgiveness for all the sins i continue to do. I know I am not the strongest or loyalisty Christian, but i ask of you to please help me grow in my belief. I know that i continue to prove my disloyalty within my everyday activites. I wish to change that lord and prove to you that i am indeed a servant of you. My only wish is that you could forgive me my lord and help grow into the Christian i hope to one day be able to claime i am. Without you Lord i am nothing, nor will i ever be anything, your help. I want to know that in my heart; the path that i take; you are right there beside me holding my hand. I truely love you my God, with all my heart.

 

I just got back from the movies and im still in tears. me and the rest of the church group went to see The Secrets of Jonathan Sperry and my eyes cant help but water. Every time i think about it i start to tear up again. My friend Kristen told me that i would cry but i didnt expect that much. Its not really sad tears- well some of them are- but more moved tears. You see ive been pretty distant with the lord and this movie helped reopen my eyes to the lords grace. It touched me and everyone in the movie theatre that im pretty sure noone left without red eyes. I definitely believe that this movie has improved my relationship with the Lord tremendously and i heartly recommend this movie to anyone thats in touch with the lord, wanting to get closer to God, or someone that is wanting to find God. I can speak on behalf of the growly apart from God group that this movie will help you find the lord again and hopefully help you encourage another to find the lords grace. The Lord is truley the light at the end of the tunnel and i wish that everyone will cross over and stand before him one day. Goodnight and God Bless you.